I got an 79% on my international relations test
I got an 84% on my experimental psych test
I have a paper to write


The office and my name is earl are on tonight

lately, been having these existential moments when everything seems to be falling. i just know people around me will die. or i will. and i miss someone so much. i get into a zone when i'm actually happy about my own death.


someone gave me something. real precious. i've been waiting for a long time.

disgusting

Spring Break starts tomorrow
I switched one of my classes to an honors class, now I won't have to take 20 hours next semester
I get a single room next year


I have an experimental psych test tomorrow
I have a lot of work to do over spring break

hahahah lolz

Three days ago, I saw a sunrise at six pm. I was sitting on a plane in Washington DC. The sun had nearly set. But as the plane took off, the sun began rising. It was pretty cool.

"In the first strings of sunlight..."

i had a fight with someone which was a bit revelatory. i saw her for what she is, a total cunt. and i ached.


i feel free of cuntery

bewitch the encuntress. That's what I always say (when she's not listening).

I had a really great day today, I went shopping with my mom
I got some Michael Kors Jeans
I got a couple Vera Wang nightgowns


Usually, when I have a really great day, I crash later that night, and tonight is no exception. Now I feel awful.
When I tried showing my dad the stuff I bought today, he was completely disinterested
When I showed my dad the jeans that I got he said "those look like they could fit me" (insinuating that I am fat). I was, obviously, more than a little hurt by this comment so I made a joke of it and said "yeah, but they're too short for you".
My family was sitting around the table and I felt like there was no place for me
I feel like crying

How could he say that?

I don't know.

Maybe because we have an uneasy relationship and we never quite know what to say to one another, and so what we do say to each other often comes out wrong. Maybe he was trying to make a joke (even though we don't have a stable enough relationship to make jokes about one another). Maybe he just didn't think before he spoke.

I don't know why he said that, but I really don't think that he meant to hurt me.

CC,
Take the lead on bridging the gap. Just go up to him and tell him that you love him, without there being some reason.

Some guys just have a hard time dealing with their feelings and showing their feelings. I've probably been guilty of it myself. I try to hug my son and I generally get along well with my daughter. It's just tough because you have to build up a trust about what is acceptable in affection. I wish I would hug my daughter more, but it's a matter of knowing that she'll accept it for what it is.

Good luck on this.

burn his things, CC

Thanks. I'll try both your suggestions.

lol


listening to nineties shoegaze, love this music


nothing happening with life

My son started driver's Ed today. He was telling me that the driver's Ed manual doesn't mention the "Slow kids at play" signs that show up on the streets. We then passed one of the "Slow kids at play" signs.
Some progress on some of the problems that I've been tracking up at work.
I'm starting to work off some of my backlog of things promised to friends here.
I added an indie group to my myspace page and they left a comment on my page.


Going back to work after a pretty cool weekend.
I still owe some people some favors.

King of the Hill isn't on today
Without a Trace isn't on today either, therefore, I have nothing to watch for most of the night.
I hate studying


Lost is on tonight; we finally find out how Locke became paralyzed. I'm so excited. Locke is my favorite character.
I'm going to watch Adam Sandler (whom I absolutely LOVE) hosting the late show (I taped it from last night)


What does it say about me that all the things listed above have to do with TV (except for one, I guess)?

you're such a tvholic. reminds me of myself.


headache, probably a stroke


top model rerun..

I didn't get my year end review today--it's been rescheduled for tomorrow.


We kicked over a problem to another team and they got their vendor to work up a fix in short order. They said good things about how we helped to characterize and setup reproduction efforts. This was a good pat on the back.
I finally took apart two of the servers in my cube and started to combine them. I'm going to excess one and keep the other.


I was a bit depressed this afternoon until I got busy with the servers.
I'm a bit concerned about my review.

it's gonna be fine, tramp

::pats tramp on the back::


anna nalick's song wreck of the day. a good song makes me happy. i'm pathetic.

realizing how pathetic i am

the only way up is down

-ebtg

I'm getting a cold
I got an 80% (which is a "B") on my finite math test
I have 2 tests on Tuesday


I watched Death Proof last night
I downloaded a whole bunch of Natalie Merchant bootlegs
I don't have to pay to do my laundry for the next week (oddly enough, this is the thing that excites me the most)

I got 100% on my biology test.
I found the Nancy Drew soundtrack at the library today.
I only have to go to school every Wednesday at 3, but I don't have to at all this week because of some middle of the semester break thingy.


....

I forgot to throw my gym shoes in my bag this morning so I can’t workout at lunch.


I forgot to throw my gym shoes in my bag this morning so I can’t workout at lunch.

so what you're fit?

I can't do all this work I need to do coz the computer system not ready to go yet here.

I can't do all this work I need to do coz the computer system not ready to go yet here.
Plus Iced Coffee soon...

I didn't go to work Friday, because I was sick.


I didn't go to work Friday, because I was sick.

listening to the grates. their sweet indie rock makes me feel nice.


my brother's not home yet.

I finished all my papers that are due this week
I'm going home tomorrow
Tori concert in 3 days and 9 hours!!
I feel better than I have in ages


Still have lots of other crap that I need to do
Stressing about my research project--I can't find one of the assessments that I need

My friend in the next cube at work just gave her notice.

She has a lot of quirks (constant throat clearing, constant nail picking, constant phone whispering) so I will be alright.

I FINALLY got the CDs I ordered

i can finally now get messiah complex.

i won't be able to get the messiah complex for a little while longer. DAMMMMITTTTT!!!!!

it's the weekend!

My vacation over & I hate work!
3-Day Weekend!

i've finished the computer thing my brother ordered me to do. jerk.


i've only slept 8 hours in two days

I have to do my IRB
I have to read a book and write a paper on it for monday
I have a finite math test on Tuesday that I also need to study for


I finished my physics project
Only a 2 day week next week, then home for Thanksgiving
I get to see my entire family next week (I haven't done that in ages and I miss them)
I get to see my friend next week (she might even go shopping with us if she can get off work)
Once I get my IRB, Paper and test done, I might feel like I have more breathing room

My last physics class was today (I don't have to take the final)
I got a B+ in physics, which is much better than I thought I would do
Only 6 days of classes left


I have a presentation due on Wednesday that I need to start working on
I need to figure the results of my experiment, but I don't want to

I can't believe that this semester is almost over (I only have 1 day of regular classes left, then 2 days of finals).
I'm proud of myself for actually making it through the semester. There were times I was honestly not sure if I would make it or not
I've been playing the piano a lot lately and that makes me happy
I had my professor look over my lab paper and he said that it is "very very good" (his words, not mine)!
Just presented my psych of gender presentation!
Now, I have nothing left to do but write 2 papers and study for finals


That damn psych of gender presentation. I'm having a hard time getting myself to do it (and it's due tonight). (on the plus side, I have actually started on it, which is definitely something).
My family is snowed in at home and I wish I was there with them (is that weird? I think it's fun to be snowed in with your family, playing cards, playing pool, you know, fun stuff like that)

A week from today, I'll be home for Christmas break (and this awful semester officially be over)

Watching Freaks and Geeks for the first time, and am absolutely in love
excited about giving some of the presents I have for the people in my life


My boyfriend is ten million miles away (or a 7 hour drive, equally far), and there's no end in sight to the long distance right now

Unfortunately.. sometimes even the Christmas season can't overshadow loneliness.

Christmas Break is coming up in two school days (2 weeks of freedom, HALLELUJAH!)
it's Friday!
i'm preparing my friends' Christmas gifts


I feel like shit (cramps) and no medicine i take seems to eliminate the problem
I have a C in gym and my group refuses to work with me on this stupid project we've been assigned

I feel for you. I always had really really bad, incapacitating cramps, and no medicine helped. Finally, after like 8 years, I finally went to the doctor for it. She gave me Ponstel (a medicine specifically for cramps) and they helped--but not much. So after that, I went back and she put me on the pill and also gave me vicodin. The birth control pills have really helped. Sometimes I still have bad cramps, but I just take the Ponstel and/or Vicodin and then they go away. If you always have bad cramps, I would suggest that you go to the doctor (especially if medicine never helps), trust me, you won't regret it.

I'm going LINE DANCING TONIGHT!!! (I'm so excited, it deserves extra smiles)


It's Friiiiday
There's gorgeous snow outside and the sun is shining
I get to see my boyfriend tomorrow after 2 weeks of separateness!
I get to go to a Christmas party tomorrow!!!


It's not tomorrow yet.

Aunt Nell's death


Getting to see some relatives that I hadn't seen in a long time. I had to introduce myself to Aunt Nell's daughter, because she had no idea who I was. She did know my dad, since they were first cousins.


Hearing myself being called "Jonny". Ugh! I'm five years old again.

Finished my lab paper!
4 days and 15 hours until I get to go home


Finals week. 'nuff said.

Done with 2 finals and a presentation today (and I think I did pretty good on all of them!)
Only 1 more test and 1 more paper left
1 day and 16 hours until I get to go home!


I still have 1 more test and 1 more paper to do

Finally started writing my soc paper. I've already got 3 pages on the first question alone. I still have to answer 2 more questions. The paper's supposed to be about 4-6 pages long. I'll have no problem with that, if anything, I'll probably be over.
24 hours from now, I'll be home


I just sold back my books, which I paid $287 for, and got $11.75 back for them (that's like 4.1% of what I paid for them). Oh wait, I forgot, I also won a candy bar. Well, then I guess that more than helps to even the score. ugh.....!
One more final tonight. Her essay questions are a bitch, too. I'm not looking forward to it.

^Doesn't that just ALWAYS SUCK about those book returns????
Good luck on your essays-I know you will do well!

Almost time to go home.

I really gotta poopie bad.